update

so, a couple of exciting things have gone down this week. bethany transferred to a new unit, a step-down trauma unit, and she loves it. for the first time in her nursing career of 4 months, she feels like the nurses around her are supportive (i.e. she doesn't come home feeling like $hit after every shift). i am very excited for her...she now feels like she is going to become the kind of nurse that she wants to be.

also, it looks like we are going to be moving out of our current place a bit earlier than Jan...its looking like October. i talked to our property manager today, whose name is either Loletta or Loretta, i don't quite know yet, nor do i know how to ask without coming off as completely culturally incompetent. she was totally supportive of our request to move out early, so we can hang out at our friends Ryan and & Holly's place while they are on tour with their new album. we only live a couple miles to the west of the action in san francisco, but sometimes it feels as though we might as well live in another city altogether. we want to be closer to the community of people we have connected with so we can share more of life together. it would be nice to be closer to public transit and our jobs as well. didn't expect that conversation with the landlord to go as well as it did so i was pretty stoked.

ok, so i am a little scared to do this, but i am going to post the first poem i have written since about 5th grade; this reflects some of my thoughts lately:

a small piece of the truth has found me.

i know that the experience of eternity ought to begin here,today,
but if i am honest with myself,
i didn’t have faith it would materialize.

so vibrant and alive, finally i can look down and see flecks from the soil of life dirtying my hands. i don’t want to wash it off.

i refuse to ask any more to be cleansed from the mysterious thing which unites us.

energy and time unwittingly spent becoming less than who i was created to be will change...now.